How I miss our old SparkPeople website! I have been spending quite a bit of time on MyFitnessPal but it’s just not the same…
A friend has established her “group” there, which seems to consist of just the two of us - a few other MFP’ers have popped in, but nobody seems to hang around. It is likely that we are quite boring & neither one of us has made significant progress - but hey, maintenance counts for something, doesn’t it?!?
Watching clips of my ancient home videos makes me sad - in my 20’s & 30’s, I was about 40 lbs less than I am now, & yet I thought I was gargantuan… My stated goal when I joined SP was to get down to my pre-thyroidectomy weight, which was 175, 20 lbs less than what I am today. I’ve been stuck on this little plateau between 190-195 for almost 5 yrs now - “serious but not dedicated” is how my friend described us; that hit me like a cold bucket of water! The truth hurts & all that…
I did go to visit my mother yesterday, timing it just right with our tray of cookies as they were finishing up lunch! Yes, she knew me & yes, she seemed pleased to see me (no recriminations, she seems to be past those emotions) but she was incapable of carrying on conversation, & after less than an hour of my monologue of current events, she grew restive - fiddling with ribbons on her wheelchair & finally trying to pick debris off one of the wheels until I asked her to please stop, she was going to hurt herself… She’s maneuvering quite well now, pulling herself along with her feet in her wheelchair. She escorted us to the elevator & that was that. I had taken her a new pack of cushy socks that she seemed to like, & a couple of Christmas decorations for her room. Merry Effin’ Christmas, as we like to exclaim to one another!
See, you did your daughterly duties. She was glad to see you, then she was done. It feels bad, but that's what happens inside brains in her state. Like getting the attention of a 1 year old. They love to see you, then "where's the next thing?". You're a good daughter, Val.
ReplyDeleteOn "lighter news" I was in a self-induced plateau for 20+ years at 220 +/- 10...or higher. Now, after a bad bout with a UTI, subsequent yeast infection followed by a resurgence of c-diff, I'm at 204. I changed how I eat as the colitis was so bad...until it wasn't. I may see onederland for the first time in almost 30 years. Just in time for my hip replacement ..which if I kept the danged weight off to begin with I wouldn't have needed it.
I appreciate your support, but I feel like about the farthest thing from a "good daughter" right now, it's not even funny. Yesterday's grim news came in the form of the statement for Mom's retirement account; at her current level of care it has about 10 months left before it is exhausted. At this time last year (especially after mom's Xmas Eve fall when she broke her wrist), I was expecting that to be our last Christmas season
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