"she's chosen vagueblogging internet martyr as her life's work."
I've tried to avoid being vague; try to be as honest & forthright as I can be - yeah, I admit I play the "poor Val" card too often; my privilege is showing!
I pity da fool who tries to make sense of this disjointed mess - started sometime last month, for some reason feeling the compulsion to continue stringing these things together In Case Of My Demise (untimely or not).
Just Doin' It
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
I don't want to jinx myself, but decided to make the most of this "day off that wasn't"** by recommitting to being more fully present in my daily life...
If that sounds like gobbledegook, yes it partially is - bcz I would be lying if I swore that I would never make poor food choices again, that I'm going to follow the Paleo path 100% (I like Robb Wolf's more real-life "80/20" objective), that I'm never going to waste my time lounging again...
**I had scheduled Wed - Sat off, originally planning to haul to that MS ride, but I seem to have guaranteed an early spring when I decided to cancel the trip - however, I left the days off as they were. Unfortunately I have to make a return trip to a client's farm this afternoon - it's easy for me to allow my free time to get completely subsumed unless I DO leave town! Anyway, it's a good deed that I need to do (client's hubby will be returning from Iraq in 3 wks so I count this "special favor" as my welcome-home gift for a serviceman)...
Z has to do a certain number of service hours as part of his religion class this year, so maybe this can count as some of mine ;-)
If that sounds like gobbledegook, yes it partially is - bcz I would be lying if I swore that I would never make poor food choices again, that I'm going to follow the Paleo path 100% (I like Robb Wolf's more real-life "80/20" objective), that I'm never going to waste my time lounging again...
**I had scheduled Wed - Sat off, originally planning to haul to that MS ride, but I seem to have guaranteed an early spring when I decided to cancel the trip - however, I left the days off as they were. Unfortunately I have to make a return trip to a client's farm this afternoon - it's easy for me to allow my free time to get completely subsumed unless I DO leave town! Anyway, it's a good deed that I need to do (client's hubby will be returning from Iraq in 3 wks so I count this "special favor" as my welcome-home gift for a serviceman)...
Z has to do a certain number of service hours as part of his religion class this year, so maybe this can count as some of mine ;-)
Needs/Haves/Wants
Friday, February 25, 2011
Just when i thought "Spring was in the air", this morning dawned cold, damp, & dreary - 41 degrees!
Another shining example of variability of TX weather: it's been muggy & humid since Wed, w/intermittent drizzle, but heavy thunderstorms crossed our area yesterday - late morning by the time they arrived in our section of the county. (seems like whenever I need to go to the feedstore, it RAINS) Guess that's the beauty of my new crew-cab truck - I could lay a couple of bags on the back seat to hold us over until it dries out...
Anyway, here's a shining example of why I did NOT select fancy leather interior for new vehicle:
As I was driving home through the thickening downpour, I saw a small dog by the side of the highway... I knew there was something abnormal about her attitude & posture - as I passed, I realized D@mn, she's been hit by a car!
I doubled back to scoop her up - even if she were doomed, I couldn't leave her to spend the last moments of her life in misery, drowning in a thunderstorm! She was bleeding from nose & mouth, I wrapped her up in my barn jacket, shooed the Chihuahuas away, & plopped her in my passenger seat. (Of course she bled all over it but as I said, that's the beauty of vinyl ;-)
She had pretty significant head trauma, but luckily no broken bones & only 1 broken tooth! I gave her emergency treatment yesterday; the bleeding stopped & she seems stable now...
(approx 10 mon old terrier mix, recent estrus - for all I know, she may have been chased into the road by male dogs. Of course no collar or tags; I'll scan her for a microchip but I SERIOUSLY DOUBT IT.)
Hopefully I can place her in a decent home - we don't need another dog (she'll make Number 8), but I may be outta luck when my boy gets home today & sees her ;-)
I was speculating today about what I NEED to do vs what I HAVE to do vs what I WANT to do; I'm going to take this previously-scheduled morning off to take my dad to a gym that has Power Plate equipment, used for fitness training & rehab, & have him give it a try.
http://www.powerplate.com/us
/
Any way I can get more done in less time - sounds like a plan to me!
Another shining example of variability of TX weather: it's been muggy & humid since Wed, w/intermittent drizzle, but heavy thunderstorms crossed our area yesterday - late morning by the time they arrived in our section of the county. (seems like whenever I need to go to the feedstore, it RAINS) Guess that's the beauty of my new crew-cab truck - I could lay a couple of bags on the back seat to hold us over until it dries out...
Anyway, here's a shining example of why I did NOT select fancy leather interior for new vehicle:
As I was driving home through the thickening downpour, I saw a small dog by the side of the highway... I knew there was something abnormal about her attitude & posture - as I passed, I realized D@mn, she's been hit by a car!
I doubled back to scoop her up - even if she were doomed, I couldn't leave her to spend the last moments of her life in misery, drowning in a thunderstorm! She was bleeding from nose & mouth, I wrapped her up in my barn jacket, shooed the Chihuahuas away, & plopped her in my passenger seat. (Of course she bled all over it but as I said, that's the beauty of vinyl ;-)
She had pretty significant head trauma, but luckily no broken bones & only 1 broken tooth! I gave her emergency treatment yesterday; the bleeding stopped & she seems stable now...
(approx 10 mon old terrier mix, recent estrus - for all I know, she may have been chased into the road by male dogs. Of course no collar or tags; I'll scan her for a microchip but I SERIOUSLY DOUBT IT.)
Hopefully I can place her in a decent home - we don't need another dog (she'll make Number 8), but I may be outta luck when my boy gets home today & sees her ;-)
I was speculating today about what I NEED to do vs what I HAVE to do vs what I WANT to do; I'm going to take this previously-scheduled morning off to take my dad to a gym that has Power Plate equipment, used for fitness training & rehab, & have him give it a try.
http://www.powerplate.com/us
/
Any way I can get more done in less time - sounds like a plan to me!
Close But No Cigar
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Seems like NOTHING is working out as planned this weekend...
As I've whined previously, I had originally planned to haul to a ride way out in MS this weekend to make another attempt at B-boy's 1st (successful) 100-mi ride... However, between tumultuous weather, going hand-in-hand w/lack of training, and my recent decision to join the rest of the crowd, upgrading my rig from the gas-guzzling motorhome to a conventional pickup & horse trailer w/small living quarters - it just wasn't coming together for me.
Last but not least was the coincidence of this being the 1st karate tourney of the season - after recent LOVELY turmoil w/the ex, Super Karate Mom needed to be there - it wouldn't have been fair to hand this responsibility off on my parents (more about them later**). Let's just say his heart wasn't in it; can't say that I blame him. This month has flown by for me too. He placed 3rd in his Specialty (weapons) class, but then again there were only 3 participants. Huge intermediate class of 20 for kata (forms), so once again he didn't place... & in sparring, he had the bad luck to draw Nico (last year's state champ) in the 1st round - so it was a hasty defeat - & to add insult to injury, the kid kicked him TWICE in the crotch & didn't get called for fouls.
We're both ragged out & trying to recharge now.
**& my big plans to introduce my dad to the rehabilitative potential of the Power Plate didn't pan out either: I had barely pulled out of my driveway Fri morning when he called to say he had changed his mind, he didn't want to try this newfangled device. Maybe I can talk him into it next week! I would have gone myself, but then I drove on & realized about 20 mi from home that I had failed to grab my purse out of the Kia (moron). My buzz was gone by the time I retraced my steps (very carefully) & retrieved my purse, so I just met a friend for lunch.
As I've whined previously, I had originally planned to haul to a ride way out in MS this weekend to make another attempt at B-boy's 1st (successful) 100-mi ride... However, between tumultuous weather, going hand-in-hand w/lack of training, and my recent decision to join the rest of the crowd, upgrading my rig from the gas-guzzling motorhome to a conventional pickup & horse trailer w/small living quarters - it just wasn't coming together for me.
Last but not least was the coincidence of this being the 1st karate tourney of the season - after recent LOVELY turmoil w/the ex, Super Karate Mom needed to be there - it wouldn't have been fair to hand this responsibility off on my parents (more about them later**). Let's just say his heart wasn't in it; can't say that I blame him. This month has flown by for me too. He placed 3rd in his Specialty (weapons) class, but then again there were only 3 participants. Huge intermediate class of 20 for kata (forms), so once again he didn't place... & in sparring, he had the bad luck to draw Nico (last year's state champ) in the 1st round - so it was a hasty defeat - & to add insult to injury, the kid kicked him TWICE in the crotch & didn't get called for fouls.
We're both ragged out & trying to recharge now.
**& my big plans to introduce my dad to the rehabilitative potential of the Power Plate didn't pan out either: I had barely pulled out of my driveway Fri morning when he called to say he had changed his mind, he didn't want to try this newfangled device. Maybe I can talk him into it next week! I would have gone myself, but then I drove on & realized about 20 mi from home that I had failed to grab my purse out of the Kia (moron). My buzz was gone by the time I retraced my steps (very carefully) & retrieved my purse, so I just met a friend for lunch.
Class I, Stage 1
Wednesday, March 02, 2011
(If mere knowledge was power, I would currently be sitting here in my old favorite size 10 Lee jeans instead of XL scrubs...)
Anyway, I keep surfing obsessively, don't really know what I expect to find... Kinship/sympathy/similar life conditions??? I dunno, the word "compulsive" sounds uncomfortably close to the truth.
"Those that can, DO - those that can't, surf the Web!"
Anyway, I unearth new rating systems, such as this new Edmonton Obesity Staging System:
www.drsharma.ca/edmonton
-obesity-staging-system.html
This correlates BMI w/real health issues ("comorbidities" such as high blood pressure, diabetes, arthritis, etc) in an attempt to make a more rational analysis. By these standards I am Class I (BMI 30 - 34.9; currently I'm @ 32.7), Stage 1 - mild physical symptoms (joint pain, early arthritis) & "mild obesity-related psychology and/or mild impairment of well-being". Fair enough.
Yesterday I got myself signed up for an 8-week challenge at my gym; I have tried unsuccessfully over these past couple of wks to get Hubby to sign up w/me. Generally things of this nature have the OPPOSITE effect on me (triggering my rebellious nature I suppose), but this doesn't cost anything so I might as well give it a shot!
(Saw "my friend" yesterday, the obese younger man - I smiled encouragingly but haven't even spoken to him yet. Maybe he'll join my team? ;-) - guess I'll wear my wedding ring today so he knows it's all for good clean moral support. (I scrub my hands very frequently & perform surgeries besides, so most of the time my wedding ring lives in my desk drawer.)
Anyway, I keep surfing obsessively, don't really know what I expect to find... Kinship/sympathy/similar life conditions??? I dunno, the word "compulsive" sounds uncomfortably close to the truth.
"Those that can, DO - those that can't, surf the Web!"
Anyway, I unearth new rating systems, such as this new Edmonton Obesity Staging System:
www.drsharma.ca/edmonton
-obesity-staging-system.html
This correlates BMI w/real health issues ("comorbidities" such as high blood pressure, diabetes, arthritis, etc) in an attempt to make a more rational analysis. By these standards I am Class I (BMI 30 - 34.9; currently I'm @ 32.7), Stage 1 - mild physical symptoms (joint pain, early arthritis) & "mild obesity-related psychology and/or mild impairment of well-being". Fair enough.
Yesterday I got myself signed up for an 8-week challenge at my gym; I have tried unsuccessfully over these past couple of wks to get Hubby to sign up w/me. Generally things of this nature have the OPPOSITE effect on me (triggering my rebellious nature I suppose), but this doesn't cost anything so I might as well give it a shot!
(Saw "my friend" yesterday, the obese younger man - I smiled encouragingly but haven't even spoken to him yet. Maybe he'll join my team? ;-) - guess I'll wear my wedding ring today so he knows it's all for good clean moral support. (I scrub my hands very frequently & perform surgeries besides, so most of the time my wedding ring lives in my desk drawer.)
The Weary Warrior
Wednesday, March 02, 2011
...went by the gym today & it was FAR TOO CROWDED for the intimacy of taking photos in the big mirrors, so I took a few in the bathroom...
Not tech-savvy enough to rotate 'em!
(Notice the cheesy motivational posters: Charlie Brown & Lucy, "Never ever EVER give up!"
Current weight = 215 (gym scale, fully clothed). No time for measurements!
Front view gives horrifying appearance of far-worse-than-they-are-batwin
gs...
Side view of poor posture
Actually the ol' arms aren't that bad, there is some muscle tone!
You'll just have to wait to see the legs ;-)
Not tech-savvy enough to rotate 'em!
(Notice the cheesy motivational posters: Charlie Brown & Lucy, "Never ever EVER give up!"
Current weight = 215 (gym scale, fully clothed). No time for measurements!
Front view gives horrifying appearance of far-worse-than-they-are-batwin
gs...
Side view of poor posture
Actually the ol' arms aren't that bad, there is some muscle tone!
You'll just have to wait to see the legs ;-)
