My Lap Overflows

… with 3 little dogs on my lap this morning - life doesn’t get much better than this! My mood is a roiling mixed bag of emotions: while I’m satisfied that I’ve successfully completed my mission - delivering Moonie to Lamesa, going by San Angelo State Park for an all-too-brief return visit, a safe trip home & even a bonus ride yesterday! Since we came home a day early, I got up early yesterday morning to meet the trail riders in Rusk for a beautiful day at Train Robber Ranch…

But it was a profound disappointment not to get to see my son - I had high hopes for yesterday but when he blew off all my suggestions, I knew I wasn’t going to push the issue. “A son is a son ‘till he takes a wife” I will refocus my mission on getting Victoria in the saddle this week as Z had to take another regional business trip to Tampa. (I had offered to haul his mule to Caprock Canyon last weekend so we could ride together once again) Instead I was stuck with Tony - I had an ominous feeling about his aging gelding, but he had arranged to have him shod on the front in a cost-saving measure.

We took Moonie to my colleague’s clinic where, after initial evaluation & new X-rays, we left him in their care. He will have his MRI today & then we will make the final decision if he is a candidate for navicular surgery. Tony & I then turned south to camp out at San Angelo State Park Thurs & Fri nights. Unfortunately, Tony’s gelding went lame not quite halfway through our planned ride on Friday, so Baraq & I had to loop back to get the trailer to go rescue them. I’ll try to fill in more details later!

I’ll derail the my own meanderings to insert some more wise observations from Dr Deb Johnson:

You can not change the past and you can not completely control the future, you can only do your best for right now today.  I ruined all last week because I didn’t empty out my bag at the end of every day and let things go and start the next day empty and renewed.  There are some of you that are carrying years worth of life around with you every single day and it controls you and keeps you locked in a prison of fear, let it go!  Last week is gone and done and over and I can not change anything about it, I can only change today!  Today I am going to go and work on being the best me I can and not allow last week to ruin this week to.  It is all under my control!  I might have failed last week but I don’t have to fail this week.  

Life is way too important to just keep dragging along all the yesterdays and last weeks and previous years with you!  Do the hard work to figure out what you are getting from the negative self talk and choosing to overload and overwhelm yourself and then throw it out!  Today is a new day!  Quit thinking that people are going to think less of you if you actually man up and choose to become a happier, better, kinder person by letting go of all the shit from your past!  Your best days are today!  Choose to be your best, give your best, see the best in yourself and everyone around you and you just might actually start enjoying everything about your life!  You can’t change yesterday but you can dang sure change today!