W.Y.H.I.W.Y.G.

 (What You Have Is What You Get)

I am slowly coming into the acceptance that this is the current status of my relationship with my son -   don’t get me wrong, it’s all good & I appreciate every time he calls to ask me a random question, vents to me about this, that, or the other thing, bouncing various ideas off of me** but still I miss him - I miss his physical presence; I know I “spousified” him far too much as far as getting my minor hits of affection. “A son is a son till he takes a wife”; I know Z’s got to invest himself in his relationship with Victoria if there’s any hope of him having a successful marriage. That leaves Mommy out in the cold like the little match girl - pressing my nose to the glass, trying not to say too much nor do too much! As currently Z & V are trying to thrash out their compromises for the wedding… I understand that Victoria wants her day in the spotlight, but I agree with my son that it’s foolish to invest as much as $20 - 30K in such an event. Looks like we could easily drop $10K just by renting a couple of tents to pitch on the hillside & having everything down here on the farm, but at least that would solve the problem of the $10K rental fee just for the venue! That’s a generous wedding gift in my opinion (obviously, that’s not the only wedding gift I would give them)

** Z is currently studying to take the GMAT because he wants to go back and get an MBA. Continued education is never a bad thing, & if he thinks it will help his career I’m all for it! T minus 48 hrs - he’s been burning the midnight oil studying for this and goes to take the exam Friday evening. Fingers crossed, but I’m confident my boy is (still) a good test taker just as I was…

But my cousin has decided Holy Cross is not the retirement community for her - fortunately no one has made an offer on her house so back we go to California over Easter weekend. Keeps my mind off my current troubles which continue to be my mom’s insidious decline, and the loss of most of her clothes when they moved her to long-term care! It’s irritating because I had bought her a pile of new things since she has lost significant weight. So that’s this afternoon‘s project, combined with starting to repack & load for this weekend where Tony and I are going up to Mount Pleasant (the beautiful Priefert Ranch). The bluebonnets are blooming & it should be a beautiful weekend!